Will Smith “deeply regrets hitting Chris Rock at the Academy Awards in March.”
Smith posted a video to his verified Instagram account Friday that began with the words on the screen, “It’s been a while.”
In the video posted to his social media accounts, a solemn Smith begins with an on-screen message: “Over the past few months, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking and personal work. … You asked a lot of honest questions that I wanted to take some time to answer,” it reads.
Smith sighs, then gives his take on an altercation that made headlines worldwide and tarnished his image.
“At that point I was lost,” he says. “It’s all vague.”
CNN has reached out to Rock representatives for comment.
Smith also apologized to Rock’s family, including his mother, family and his brother, Tony Rock, who starred in the 2007 sitcom “All of Us” created by the Smiths.
“We had a great relationship,” Smith says. Tony Rock was my husband and this is probably irreparable.
Smith walked onstage at the Oscars and punched Chris Rock, who was presenting at the time, after making a joke about Smith’s wife’s shaved head.
Pinkett Smith suffers from hair loss due to alopecia, an autoimmune disease that can lead to hair loss.
In his video, Smith also answers the question of whether his wife, after rolling her eyes at Rock’s joke, had asked him to do something at the time by saying she didn’t.
He also apologizes to her, their children and his fellow Academy Award nominees in the post.
Smith says he has “spent the past three months repeating and understanding the nuance and complexity of what was happening at the time.”
“I’m not going to try to unpack all that now, but I can say to all of you, there’s not a single part of me that thinks this was the right way to behave at the time,” he says. “There’s not a single part of me that thinks this is the optimal way to deal with a sense of disrespect or insults.”
Smith adds that it hurts him to know he didn’t live up to the image people had of him.
“Disappointing people is my central trauma,” he says. I hate it when I disappoint people, so it hurts.”
Smith is sending a message to his supporters, saying that he is committed to “bringing light, love and joy into the world.”
“If you hold on, I promise we can be friends again,” he concludes.
The Academy sanctioned Smith by banning him from attending the Oscars for the next 10 years. Smith also apologized on Instagram in March, calling his behavior “unacceptable and unforgivable.”